Love is Sacrifice.

...there was a girl who encountered love.

Little did she know

This love was going to come too late...

Or maybe too soon.

There was no way of her knowing.

The one thing she did know was

This love was real and more than true.

The end drew near,

The pain sprang through her bones

All the way to her soul.

She tried to forget

But this heart inside of her,

Went out of its way to remind her.

This same heart reminded her of

Laughter

Memories

Security

Joy

These things that were all of a sudden gone,

Without her consent.

She found it hard to let them go.

For the first time in her life,

She experienced grief.

The overwhelmingness of sorrow and lonesome.

Feelings she had never felt before.

On this newfound territory,

She found herself often in conversation with The Eternal Listener.

"How will I do this on my own?"

"Help me find myself."

"This doesn't seem fair, help me understand."

Awaiting reply, 

She walked with Him and no one else.

Even when the enemy was firing hard, 

Her grip grew loose,

But she refused to let go

Simply because she knew He felt the same,

For he had experienced a suffering far beyond.

Change was occurring.

He had whispered His love in her ear.

She began praying more and more,

Searching her heart for what this really meant.

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Abba, 

     I don't blame you for you promised hardship in life and along with those struggles, in Your Name, an increase in strength and perseverance. I have nothing but thanks to repay you. You are a gracious God who loves and would never present anything I couldn't handle.

     Lord, you, better than anyone else, knows my feelings for the love that I have found. You know the feeling continues to persist, and my heart still beats for that very love. I would like to believe this tug is there for a reason, but I ask that you reveal this truth to me.

[Without her even knowing, her prayers began evolving.]

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Lord,

     I am struggling to get this love off of my mind. I can't even help thinking about him. When I'm not thinking of him, he is there sub-consciously and each thought manages to step from him or branch out to him.

     Part of me is frustrated and discouraged, because I feel as though I am taking steps back, but the other part of me is more than blessed to at least have the memories, if nothing else, for all of them were good and I wouldn't change them for anything.

     I just pray that you will help me step back and see the understanding in this situation and help me grow.

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Heavenly Father,

     You never fail to amaze me. I am feeling your love and comfort more than ever before. Your presence is evident in my heart and mind. Father, everyday I am feeling stronger by your will. Because of the love you have shown me, especially lately, I have never desired you more.

     Lord, the love that I have found remains in my heart, but now in a different way. For some reason I feel like I need to pray. Like I really need to pray. I don't know why, it's just something that has been really heavy on my heart.

But I would like to pray specifically for him. You know who he is.

Lord, more than anything else..

I want him to be happy

In everything that he does and everyone he encounters.

I pray that people see him for his heart and desire for you

And not the position he holds or the people he knows.

Love is sacrifice,

So even if it's not me, than I want him to find love

In someone he deserves.

The best.

P.S.

Since I won't be able to speak to him.. Could you please whisper these words in his ear and..

...make sure he never forgets.

Thank you. I love you.

Amen.

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That prayer..
Was when everything began to change.
She was coming back.
She had been refined.
She was forever grateful.

let it go.

I have a question.
Have you ever intended on letting something go but found that a lot easier said than done?

That statement has flowed from my mouth more than ever lately, and it is basically the epitome of not letting something go.
There is part of you that unknowingly wants to hold on for dear life until you get an answer, but unfortunately, that is not how life works.
I have been so distracted by this and that, that I have not really been able to let go.

Well, folks.
I let go.

Some things are just out of my hands and yet I find myself wanting to assist, wanting to be a part of the solution, but that is not the case.

So instead of trying to figure out problems or things in my life I can't control I am going to run.

I am going to run to Him.

2 Peter 1:3-4
3His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness.
4Through these he has given us his very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and espace the corruption in the world caused by evil desires.

That is all I need.
Like I have mentioned in my earlier posts, I have been given the best two, FREE gifts.
Grace and Eternal life.
Now it is time to focus on that, and repay God for the love he has shown me, with love.

I was reading in Romans (I LOVE ROMANS) and I read the passage on being a living sacrifice.

In that, I need a renewing of my mind, and a purifying of my heart, and the only way to get that is through Christ.

Thank you Lord for revealing yourself to me.

God is Love.

search your hearts and be silent.

Wow.
God is good.
So much to say today.

Yesterday was our post day for Psalm 4 @ weareunearthed.blogspot.com.

Verse 4 read

In your anger do not sin;
when you are on your beds,
search your hearts and be silent.

Let me tell you.
I have not searched my heart, like really searched my heart in a long time.
So, this particular verse was much needed.

So I began praying, and quickly found myself and a very vulnerable spot, since I had really not gone to the Lord with much that has been going on in my life lately.
Ya see the thing is I am one of those people who is constantly reminded of how I can't do things without Christ, but still subconsciously believes I can.
It's kind of an awkward thing, and I am really trying to change.

side note:

If you think of it, feel free to pray for me about that.

I began just laying everything out there and just prayed that God would direct me to read scripture that I really just needed to read.
So a little bit ago I began studying Romans, but slowly stopped.
Well, after thumbing through The Bible for a little bit, I started to think Romans, Romans, Romans. I don't know why, but the urge was there. So I decided, well I started it, and I want to finish it.

Well, my friends, I realized I LOVE ROMANS!
a lot.
There is so much truth in the book of Romans.

Romans 5 is about Peace and Joy. I was instantly drawn, because I have been struggling with finding peace, so this was a great start. I was reassured in chapter 5 that I have been justified (I love that word in relation to Christ) through faith by His grace.
Ahh, so good to hear. Seriously, where would we all be without grace. Real talk.
I was humbled when reading verses 2-5

2 ..And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God.
3 Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;
4 perseverance, character; and character, hope.
5 and hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

Thanks to God my sufferings, struggles, and hardships are producing perseverance.
I even felt stronger right after reading this passage.

Next was Romans 6.


I AM ALIVE IN CHRIST!
That is really all I need to know.
I desire to live in Christ for the rest of my days. I want to seek his face in everything I do.
There is no better leader to follow than my Savior.

For sin shall not be your master, because you are not under law but under grace.

It is my job to be a slave to righteousness.

I want to do all things right in the eyes of Christ.

I mean seriously, we are so blessed. We as sinners, are receiving gifts, that consist of grace, and eternal life. What? That is crazy. 

The Most High is gifting us?

For what?

What have we done for him?

Oh I know, constantly sinning.

Constantly keep His word to ourselves.

He is gifting us because he loves us.

No greater love. No, not one.

Wow. I am stoked to continue reading Romans.

God is Love.

changes.

someone once told me that creating a blog was pointless because they are barely sustained.

well i refuse to let that happen.

things are going to change..right about.. now.

so here is what has kind of consumed some of my time keeping me from attending to my own blog.

at the beginning of my blog i started posting my visions after reading a perticular psalm

well after some time, my friend, anna spencer and i decided that we should collaborate this idea with our friends..

check out this website.

http://weareunearthed.blogspot.com/

so far it is going really good.

if you would like to submit, feel free to get a hold of me.

also, i have been getting back into taking pictures, so I will be presenting those in my future posts, but here is some of my latests...more to come.

Sensory Impression

Today in English class I was asked to pick a topic and than right a paragraph of sensory impression.
One of the the topics was a religious service.. which my eyes went to right away.
It was so weird because I didn't even really think about what to wrote I just put my pen on the page and this is what came out..

It was almost like there was no one else in the room except for two

A feeling of peace, comfort and safety drenched the walls of the church filled with sinners crying out Although their cries were loud the room was vacant

The sinners were bowing on their knees praying to a god as if they were dogs lapping up water they were so thirsty for

Their arms raised to the one true God like a baby reaching for a helping hand that they could not supply

So many voices

So many cries

There hearts cried out making it hard to breath

A sensation encompassed their bodies like a chill on a cold night

He was there

The Lord was there.

Peace in the Storm.

Ya know, when it feels like every foundation is falling out under your feet, it is nice to know that there is an unbreakable force beneath you that will lift you up and carry you, the love of Jesus Christ.

I have just come to the realization that a lot of good things in my life are disappearing. Some of them are temporary and some contain hopes of a return but no certainties.

The time without these things are going to be hard, but I pray that there absence will draw me closer and closer to my Heavenly Father.

A wise woman once told me, " Don't get out of bed in the morning without spending time with Christ"
I am going to follow that advice from this day forward.
-Thank you Anna Spencer.

The Lord is really stirring in my heart in more ways than one, and I am excited to share it with you. There is a passion that has been newly founded in my heart, and I anticipate pursuing it and I can't wait to see how the Lord uses me through it, so keep your eyes, ears, and hearts open with the coming posts.

Today I read Psalm 9

My eyes were opened when I read Psalm 9:15

15 The nations have fallen into the pit they have dug;
their feet are caught in the net they have hidden.

Through the love and grace of Christ, no matter how far we have fallen into the pit we have dug, and no matter how tanged we are in the net we have hidden, He will pull us out and place us on the right track if we allow Him.

ALLOW HIM.

The Letter to Exiles

So the story for today is I have realized that I really struggle to find time for God, but I am excited to tell you that I am working on it.
I am excited to see what God has for me and what he teaches me through His Word.


Jeremiah 29:13-14


13"You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your hear.
14I will be found by you," declares the Lord, "and I will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you," declares the Lord, "and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile."

If you think of it please pray that I will continue to spend intentional time with God, for he is worth the time.

Thank you.

Psalm 6:7-9

7My eyes grow weak with sorrow; they fail because of all my foes.

8Away from me, all you who do evil, for the Lord has  heard my weeping.

9The Lord has heard my cry for mercy; the Lord accepts my prayer.

Footprints.

Hello my name is DESTRUCTION

Psalm 5:9-12

9Not a word from their mouth can be trusted their heart is filled with destruction. Their throat is an open grave; with their tongue they speak deceit.
10Declare them guilty, O God! Let their intrigues be their downfall. Banish them for their many sins, for they have rebelled against you.
11But let all wo take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may rejoice in you.
12For surely, O Lord, you bless the righteous; you surround them with your favor as with a shield.

Psalm 4

1Answer me when I call to you, O my righteous God. Give me relief from distress; be merciful to me and hear my prayer.

My Favorite Excerpt From Verse 4

Psalm 4:4 "In your anger do not sin; when you are on your beds, search your hearts and be silent."

What does it really mean to search your heart?

How often do you spend time in silence searching your heart?

How would your day be affected if you were to search your heart every morning before you got out of bed?

Strike all my enemies on the jaw; break the teeth of the wicked.

Psalm 3

A psalm of David. When he fled from his son Absalom.

1O Lord, how many are my foes! How many rise up against me!

2Many are saying of me, "God will not deliver him."

3But you are a shield around me, O Lord; you bestow glory on me and lift up my head.

4To the Lord I cry aloud, and he answers me from his holy hill.

5I lie down and sleep; I wake again, because the Lord sustains me. 

6I will not fear the tens of thousands drawn up against me on every side.

7Arise, O Lord! Deliver me, O my God! Strike all my enemies on the jaw; break the teeth of the wicked.

8From the Lord comes deliverance. May your blessing be on your people.

Psalm 2

Psalm 2:7-12

7I will proclaim the decree of the Lord: He said to me, "You are my Son; today I have become your Father.
8Ask of me, and I will make the nations your inheritance, the ends of the earth your possession.
9You will rule them with an iron scepter; you will dash them to pieces like pottery."
10Therefore, you kings, be wise; be warned, you rulers of the earth.
11Serve the Lord with fear and rejoice with trembling.
12Kiss the Son, lest he be angry and you be destroyed in your way, for his wrath can flare up in a moment. Blessed are all who take refuge in him.
my favorite part of 12, "Blessed are all who take refuge in him."
Refuge: a shelter from danger or hardship

[How reassuring to know that we kind find shelter in the arms of our heavenly Father. Thank you Lord.]

in the beginning..

this girl, who had a passion for art and the Holy Spirit, had a dream that she would be able to share her thoughts with anyone who wanted to hear or wanted to see.

She found herself struggling to find time to read the Bible, but after a challenge she made herself, she decided that one of the ways she was going to dive into the Bible was to draw what she read. She was going to reciprocate her thoughts and ideas on paper. She began to think that it would be cool if others could see what she was seeing.

She began with Psalm 1 and she was going to read a book of Psalms everyday and draw, capture or write out the image that came to her mind.

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1Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers.

2But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night.

3He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers.

4Not so the wicked! They are like chaff that blows away.

5Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgement not sinners in the assembly of the righteous.

6For the Lord watches over the way of 

the righteous, but the way of the wicked will perish.

[She was excited to continue this novel journey in Psalms and exploring her thoughts through art.]